Do you find yourself wishing for a different nose or think your forehead is too big? Do you compare your looks to others and wish you were as beautiful as they were? I know at one point or another we have all had those thoughts or similar ones.
For many years I have looked at my body and longed for beauty. Don't get me wrong, I KNOW that I know, that I know I am beautiful to God but I have a heard time trusting that a person would look at me and find me beautiful. It is something I (and I'm sure many others) have struggled with most of my "adult" life. I say "adult" cause I probably started with this insecurity after my parents got divorced, which just happened to be that awkward phase in my life, High School. I remember someone telling me that I looked like I wearing a fat suit, kinda like the one Robin Williams wears in Mrs. Doubtfire. Now this statement is factual cause to be honest, that is just where my fat likes to hang out (I told you I was going to get real). And while it hurt and at times still does I know that the person who said this didn't mean it as an insult but as a way to hopefully motivate me to loose weight. Unfortunately, my body image insecurities took over and Satan uses that against me all the time.
Many of you may not know this but I am currently 35 years old but have never really had a boyfriend (unless you count the boy who gave me his id bracelet against his mom's wishes, some who've known me for a long time know who I'm talking about, he's all I talked about growing up, hehe). But never a REAL boyfriend. I've never been on a date, never been kissed, never held hands, never felt that kind of love.
It is something that I LONG for but I fear that no one will find me beautiful, I don't fit the mold guys are looking for, I'm too old to find love, I'm too immature for real relationship (I LOVE watching Disney movies and the Disney channel, in fact as I type this, I'm listening to part of the FROZEN soundtrack, singing annoyingly loud). But I also know that God has promised to fulfill this desire of my heart, on numerous occasions actually. Through Scriptures, people, strangers, friends, prophetic words, etc.
I'm not saying any of this for sympathy. I am just saying that I know I am not alone in this way of thinking.
Check out this video about how these women saw themselves vs how they saw others. You may be surprised at what you see.
We need to get to a place where we can walk in the freedom of KNOWING this EVERY DAY!!!!!
What about you? Do you have these thoughts as well or am I the only one (I hope not).
Leave a comment below & share with me something that you have overcome or something that you continue to struggle with. I'd love to pray with you about it all.